58 THE GIFT

I admit I got a little crazy.  I'd drunk
from the fount of your affection and wanted to go
on drinking.  In my uncomprehending funk,
I badgered you with words.  You who know
Krishnamurti's secret-- "I don't mind
what happens."  You had your choice once.   Die
or find another purchase.  So while I complained,
you remained speechless as the sky.
What did I hope for with all my analysis?
You are as you are, and I am overthrown
by the inarticulate realities I miss.
I should have trumped your silence with my own.
But a poet's tongue never will be still.
So take my gift of words for good or ill.